According to the DSM-IV manual for diagnosing psychological disorders, clinical depression is "a depressed mood and/or loss of interest or pleasure in life activities for at least 2 weeks and at least five of the following symptoms that cause clinically significant impairment in social, work, or other important areas of functioning almost ever day." The symptoms are as follows: depressed mood most of the day, diminished interest or pleasure in all or most activities, significant unintentional weight loss or gain, insomnia or sleeping too much, agitation or psychomotor retardation noticed by others, fatigue or loss of energy, feelings of worthlessness or excessive guilt, diminished ability to think or concentrate, or indecisiveness, and recurrent thoughts of death. Sufferers describe it as drowning, loneliness, and feelings of doubt, suicide, and hopelessness.
My work explores depression and the effects it has on people through photography. It attempts to reach out to people who may be suffering and to communicate an understanding of the extent to which this disorder affects their everyday lives.
My life has almost always seemed like a fantasy story. Not the "happily ever after" type, but more along the lines of the original Grimm Brothers story that are intended to serve as warnings. I feel like I'm acting, performing, and hiding all at the same time. Sometimes I'm the victim and sometimes I'm the villain, but I am always playing a role. In my twisted fantasy world, there is always something at stake.